Not really, I don't want to die just yet.
But my life is really crappy lately, mainly because I quit smoking about 3 days ago and am dealing with wanting a cigarette soooooo bad.
But on the good side of things, my landlord is going to give me a computer for F R E E...no strings attached. Awesome, huh?
Anyway I've been quite busy with allpoetry....
the link to my AP site is http://allpoetry.com/poets/rachkitty if you want to check it out sometime.
Anywho, must be going just thought I'd update to let you guys know I'm still alive....
See you around! Rachel

Current Mood: Mistress Bitch

I figure that is the perfect title for earlier this evening.... i had a great guy named Chris come all the way from Delaware to see me (I live in PA) and after he had been here a lil while and we were just getting "friendly" he got a call from his boss that there was an emergency at the office and he had to go back! X'( and things were getting so good.....oh well he did take a raincheck.......

Current Mood: feel like i could puke

Hi peepz! Life is looking a little better/brighter this morning....sure things still suck, but my attitude has changed. I feel more positive today like as if good things are about to happen. I'm sitting here in my pjs listening to a soft soothing song by Sarah McLachlan...I like listening to quiet music sometimes, it relaxes me. Almost as if someone is giving me a slow wonderful back massage. Or as if I'm feeling the steamy hot water running down my naked body. I had a nice shower last night. Needed it bad lol. And I slept good, although I did wake up early...but it's all good cuz I had a nice conversation with a very nice guy.
Life is good.

Current Mood: peace, luv, and happyness

hi peeps just updating here....life has been really tough lately but what doesn't kill you makes you stronger right? Might need to get some help though.......in a couple weeks i might be going away for a few days to get some mental help....im just dealing with a lot of issues and i need help with it...so if i'm gone for awhile that's where i went....talk to you all laterz! Rach

Current Mood: sicky-poo

I spent the whole night talking off and on with a really awesome guy that I met online recently......you know he is too good to be true.....is he real? or just a dream? only time will tell......

Current Mood: owiez! me head hurts!

Life is pissing me off right now...that's all I have to say :(

Current Mood: pist off

I got an online girlfriend! ^_^ Nothing really serious, just for fun...her name is Marie she's really sweet and cute. I love her lotz! *feels all warm and fuzzy inside* It's nice to have someone to love and love me back......

Current Mood: me so happy

Welcome to my life....my crazy life......well i've met this really great guy online and he's been keeping my mind off Alex so that's a good thing :) He's really sweet, sexy, intelligent, kind, friendly, amusing, and he's willing to listen to my insane ramblings......and he's single! *drools* Too bad he lives so far away....I wish I could tell him how I feel about him, but I've decided to wait for now, get to know him better and really listen to my heart.
In other news, I made a B I G mistake. I gave my number to a stranger, and while usually this hasn't been a problem for me, this time it ended up being one. Hopefully, nothing bad will happen...hopefully this guy's bark is worse than his bite.....please pray for me, if you pray. I've been making some great friends online lately, and having a lot of fun in the process....I LOVE MY PEEPZ!!! **hugs to all my peepz** In this crazy, strange world, it's great to have friends that you know you can rely on and trust.....Well that's it for now, see ya around! xox, Rach

Current Mood: i wish..i hope...i pray...

Well, I haven't written in here in a while, mainly because I've been busy with CyberSocieties. Life has been crazy (as usual)...officially broke up with my fiance, and have been dealing with my ankle. Overall though, life has been good....well gotsta run, talk to you all laterz! :D Rach

Current Mood: pondering life

Hi! I found a really cool thing called cybersocieties. It's a great place to meet friends and its kinda like a game, because you get points and have a rank. It's mucho fun! Check it out, I dare you! Rach

Current Mood: flowers are pretty

Life is funny sometimes. I think I've decided to become a lesbian. I'm bi for now, since I still am attracted to both guys and gals, but I think I want to find a nice girl to fall in love with. Any takers? Hit me up if your a chic and you think I would like you...especially if you live in PA.
I'm bold, aren't I? HEHE, Rach

Current Mood: soooo happy

Well, I just broke it off with my fiance. Nothing permanent mind you, I just need a hiatus so I can REALLY think about things, my feelings especially. And do I really want to marry him? I feel like if I'm engaged to him I'm leading him on, so I feel that what I am doing is for the best.
On other news, my bad ankle is bugging the heck out of me....but I'm learning to manage. and my mom is gonna come over sometime and help me finish cleaning. She's so sweet. I love her soooo much.
Life is good, even if it may not feel like it sometimes.
Luv u all, Rach

Current Mood: anxious

Hi! A little fusterated here, as my best friend Stacey likes to say. Why? Well this morning I twisted my ankle, and it was worse than I thought because I went to the ER this evening and they told me it was fractured! And they bandaged the ankle up, put a boot on it, and gave me crutches! It was really funny, me trying to learn how to use the crutches. And poor me, I live all alone on the 2nd floor, i have to go up and down 2 flights of stairs to go anywhere GRRRRRR.
And my apartment is becoming like on Joe's Apartment, except instead of cockroaches it's flies! So I am now referring to myself as the Crippled Queen of the Flies. But nah, i'm not gonna change my journal. Dont worry, droogies. I wouldn't be that mean.
Well hope you are all having a nice evening, and happy blogging! Dream of cute kitties tonight! Rach

Current Mood: fusterated

Hi peepz! I'm feelin pretty good, altho my right ankle is hurtin me a bit, I twisted it this morning **OUCH!!!** Freakin Alex's mom.....she told me to call her back this afternoon and she was asleep...and guess who told me this news? HEHE (love)ALEX (love)told me. If I hadn't been so pist she was asleep, maybe I would have enjoyed talking to him more. Maybe I should have asked him if he was enjoying his holiday. Nah, that would have freaked him out. I never ask him anything. He asked me something once. He said, "Rachel, can you hand me my sunglasses?" Ha. And I remember our hands touching, when I handed them to him. Heavenly.

Current Mood: curious